Acting

Acting's a hard thing to do believably, as watching any low-budget effort will teach you. While I like to think I have at least a degree more connection to humanity than some others, I still find it hard to feel, or express, a...conventional range of emotions. I suppose I could pretend, and fill in my emotional blanks with an act, but I fail to see the point. Primarily that's because I don't trust my acting ability enough to be believable at a time when it matters. If I'm known for being emotionally detached, if ever I'm questioned in relation to anything untoward, my lack of reaction is unlikely to be seen as anything unusual, for me at least.

I like to think this plants me nicely in the centre of two types - the psychopath who has so little concern about the social ramifications of his behaviour, making him that much more catchable, and the psychopath who is aware enough of his mindset that he puts up a front, but if ever that slips, he'll be under far more suspicion.

I'm using the term psychopath, but I genuinely don't believe I am one. I just happen to enjoy killing people. Not through any sense of justice, vengeance, sexual thrill, or need for control...then again that last one definitely does feature on occasion, although I'd imagine we all want to control various aspects of our lives, and as my life involves a degree of death, it's only natural to exert control to a degree.#

I'm rambling slightly. It's late at night and I'm amusing myself with television, which is what set me thinking about acting. No target as yet, but patience is always rewarded.